sábado, 27 de febrero de 2010

After L

Sitting here, watching the shadows of an empty room, thinking about that to think or questioning certain things doesn´t makes me feel good, and I know myself, i know that I am a sensitive and cognitive been, and sometimes this type of numblan thoughts just numbed my mind.

Its been so long since remained well i were in a sensorial hall, where everything seemed to be easier and safer, and i wouldn´t get in to where the surreal sensations and magical vanishing gradually.

I don´t know if it is the power of what i felt or the power of what we felt together, the purity and magical ilutions seems so obvious that we excludes the time and
the fate of them!

it was so pure and real as it were, none even me could accept that something so fuckin perfect were part of this reality.
First of all my intentions it was always my need to make you feel good, be your inspiration, the inspiration of a mind where i saw an oasis of colors and flavors
that i had never appreciated before, that inexplicable calm that i felt when you were protecting me in your arms, like an unearthly place where nothing from this reality could potentially damage my soul.

Now, (or a few minutes before I began to check my mind) everything seems to be locked, my mind today is distracted by feelings that i hadn´t perceived for thousands moons, now i get carried away by fictitius and terrestrial feelings, which sometimes i accept myself, i use them to continue sleeping in this new reality , where i understood that some dreams were created by our souls to die in the same way, being beautiful, but just dreams.

Today, I have to deal alone with a world full of very different realities, and my mission is to create mine, as a cocktail of goals ... and suddenly i don´t have a place to come back and feel that the world ends there, and there's nobody watching with me this world which you already knew and which you wanted to protect me sometime ago.

Sometimes I feel helpless, and so filled with real burdens
of which is not so easy to find exits with this
colored and childishness mind i have :p , but like I always said, my happiness goes hand in hand with yours, doesnt matter where we are.

Now my world is again like it was always before i meet you, a gigant park waiting for me to keep playing and being as happy as ever and my choice´ll be always be smiling, while I play with my world and the world,

I will always continue loving what i always loved, i´ll never stop experiencing the most with all my senses,i will continue reaching places full of unexplained
responses almost magical, as there where a little while ago, before opened the door to the depth of what i feel, where i was playing as a girl like always.

I made it so easy that you might not even understand,i suddenly feel so strong and secure in this moment that i can do it against everything!
I´ll never stop being the way i love being ... and loving those things i love, loving so deep, the way i love myself :)

I'm contradicting myself in one piece? could be ... but i believe that life is full of eternal and spontained mixed emotions that makes me live with adrenaline and anxiety to discover so many things that i never thought i could discover, that makes me really happy and exited :D

The changes do not exist to change me, they exist to show me that there are dimentions from where i´ve got to run away to reach higher.


I´ll get over you MOTHERFUCKER :D

1 comentario:

  1. Pretty nice. But like I said, I'd prefer to read it in spanish ;).
    Also, nice ending.
    Cya

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